Day 16 - 222.6

Ok. Back to the grindstone. Had a few "off" days, and I'm feeling like throwing in the towel.

But, that's what I always do, don't I? And, It's never gotten me anywhere before has it? Do what you've always done, get what you've always got. Right?

So, I just got off the scale, and saw that I'm up another 2 pounds. It's no wonder. After all, I didn't go to the gym yesterday. I had 2 hot dogs and chips for lunch yesterday. (after the pancake breakfast)
Then, for dinner I had grilled chicken (good chooice) and 2 big helpings of cheesy potatoes (not a good choice) and corn with butter and salt (so-so choice) and a drumstick ice cream cone for dessert. (not a good choice)

Stepping off the scale I caught myself saying Fuck It! I wanted to stop. The thought of reporting another gain, another day of poor choices and another day without exercise was embarrassing to me.

But just as quick, I caught myself. I told myself that this will not stop me. Do what you've always done (give up when it gets hard or I backslide) and I'll get what I've always got. (stay overweight, stay depressed, beat myself up)
And, It's NOT GOING TO HAPPEN THIS TIME.

I choose to focus on the fact that I have exercised 12 out the last 15 days! YES!
Have lost 3 pounds! YES!
Have been listening to my visualization CD fairly regularly! YES!
Have bought 2 health/wellbeing/diet books and have read 1 and skimmed the other. YES!
Have been doing Reiki on myself and others more in the last 2 weeks. YES!
Have chosen to eat an apple, granola bar, baked almonds from my purse, on a few occasions instead of hitting a drive though while hungry and in the car. YES!
I have been thinking about myself and taking more time for myself. YES!
Started my first day at a new job with a major hospital downtown. Made a HUGE, POSITIVE employer change in my career field, (massage therapy) and I love it! YES!
Have continued to journal my progress for myself and others to see, good or bad. YES!

I am on the right path. I will stay on this path. I will NOT give up on myself. I am WORTH IT, and this time, I will not stop.

Heading to the gym at 10am. Report later.

Here's the gym results. :)

65 minutes Recumbent Bike
13.38 miles
400 calories
Levels 5-12 (sprints)